Hello out there to all who come across this blog. After a long hiatus i'm now in a position to write some of my personal reflections on issues that interest me if nobody else. It is 'Maundy Thursday' of Holy Week, but I must say it seems like many other days to me, not to be profane....
Because for some time, every day has been 'Good Friday' or 'Holy Saturday' to me, that is I see Our Lord in His Church crucified, buried, and forgotten....And once more, in our very day, being put to death by a Jewish Council and a pagan Roman Power!
It is enough to make one weep tears of blood, no more anger, dismay, or fear, just tears. I cannot approach Our Lord at the Mass even if I could, becauch my very reverence for the awesome Mystery makes me feel like the sinful worm that I am. I know the Lord loves me more than I have loved my filth, but I am afraid nonetheless. I will not attend Mass this Easter.
Pray for me as I pray for you all
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Monday, September 28, 2009
hello
Well I'm sorry I havn't had much i'm able to post, what with a severe cold and preparing for my new job, but I do have much I intend to speak on soon, so please keep checking back from time to time. Please keep me in your collective prayers. Thank you and God Bless.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
A Reading List
Before I delve on, I thought i'd take a break and give 'everybody' a list of some of my favorite writers, both spiritual and temporal, fiction and nonfiction. I do not of course endorse everything these writers said and did, but I think it's important that what they did say and do be reflected upon. Here's the list;
st. Augustine
st. Dionysius the Areopagite
Origen
St. Gregory of Nyssa
Blaise Paschal
Fr. Antonio Rosmini-Serbati
Leon Bloy
Orestes Brownson
Fyodor Doestievsky
Vladimir Soloviev
And also i'd like to give you a list of authors that I used to like, but I began to suspect of being insidious crypto-heretics and anti-catholics;
C. S. Lewis
J.R.R. Tolkien
Suprised? Shocked? Outraged? I hope so.
Well, I will cover that and other literary perigrinations in future posts.
st. Augustine
st. Dionysius the Areopagite
Origen
St. Gregory of Nyssa
Blaise Paschal
Fr. Antonio Rosmini-Serbati
Leon Bloy
Orestes Brownson
Fyodor Doestievsky
Vladimir Soloviev
And also i'd like to give you a list of authors that I used to like, but I began to suspect of being insidious crypto-heretics and anti-catholics;
C. S. Lewis
J.R.R. Tolkien
Suprised? Shocked? Outraged? I hope so.
Well, I will cover that and other literary perigrinations in future posts.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Deletions and reflections
I have had occasion this week while at school to reflect on spiritual matters and I have decided to delete some of my earlier posts, pending some more research into the matters I posted on. I want to spend a little more time for a while addressing the issues of private revelation, false prophesy, and the End Times/Last Things.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Fatima questions
As the title would indicate, I have begun to have serious doubts about the Fatima apparitions and am thinking even that They could be diabolic. While I'm open to having my mind changed and do not doubt the very public physicality of what thousands saw, I have nagging and ever-increasing doubts. I will express these doubts now and deal with each in subsequent posts. They are;
1. The prophesy that if people did not cease offending God, a worse war would break out DURING the reign of Pope Pius XI. Sorry folks, this did not happen. The great light was indeed seen by many in 1938, but that was the warning of the war about to start, not the war itself. Nothing can change the FACT that Pius XI died several months BEFORE the start of World War II. This indicates a false prophesy, no matter how Catholic seeming and seductive It is.
2. That if the Pope and all the World's bishops did not consecrate Russia specifically to the Immaculate Heart of Mary no later than 1960, Communism would overcome every country in the world. This is what Sr. Lucy told William Walsh in 1949, and this has not happened. In fact, Communism has pretty much collapsed. This too seems to be false prophesy.
3. In the 60's, possible texts of the Third secret leaked out and they inferred apocalyptic tales of Nuclear war and the like. Wojtyla in Fulda, Gemany told people about the Third Secret in 1981 and gave no indication it was about an asassination attempt on him, and actually talked of great natural disasters striking the Earth. Ratzinger was inteviewed in the early 1980's too and suggested vaguely that it had to do with the faith of the individual christian. Then in 2000 the story of course changed and a Vision was described that to be honest is devoid of any meaningful context or sense at all. This makes the whole thing not pass the smell test, honestly.
4. And finally, the end of the Second part of the text ends with the famous 'In Portugal, the Dogma of Faith will always be preserved.' This too is false, as their is no indication that Portugal is any less infected with the loss of the pure doctrine of Christ than any other region or country in the world.
If anyone can reasonably address these concerns, please tell me because FATIMA is sounding more and more like the very 'diabolical disorientation' that Sr. Lucy said was afflicting the Church, that would 'if possible decieve the very Elect' as Our Lord warned us.
1. The prophesy that if people did not cease offending God, a worse war would break out DURING the reign of Pope Pius XI. Sorry folks, this did not happen. The great light was indeed seen by many in 1938, but that was the warning of the war about to start, not the war itself. Nothing can change the FACT that Pius XI died several months BEFORE the start of World War II. This indicates a false prophesy, no matter how Catholic seeming and seductive It is.
2. That if the Pope and all the World's bishops did not consecrate Russia specifically to the Immaculate Heart of Mary no later than 1960, Communism would overcome every country in the world. This is what Sr. Lucy told William Walsh in 1949, and this has not happened. In fact, Communism has pretty much collapsed. This too seems to be false prophesy.
3. In the 60's, possible texts of the Third secret leaked out and they inferred apocalyptic tales of Nuclear war and the like. Wojtyla in Fulda, Gemany told people about the Third Secret in 1981 and gave no indication it was about an asassination attempt on him, and actually talked of great natural disasters striking the Earth. Ratzinger was inteviewed in the early 1980's too and suggested vaguely that it had to do with the faith of the individual christian. Then in 2000 the story of course changed and a Vision was described that to be honest is devoid of any meaningful context or sense at all. This makes the whole thing not pass the smell test, honestly.
4. And finally, the end of the Second part of the text ends with the famous 'In Portugal, the Dogma of Faith will always be preserved.' This too is false, as their is no indication that Portugal is any less infected with the loss of the pure doctrine of Christ than any other region or country in the world.
If anyone can reasonably address these concerns, please tell me because FATIMA is sounding more and more like the very 'diabolical disorientation' that Sr. Lucy said was afflicting the Church, that would 'if possible decieve the very Elect' as Our Lord warned us.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
the avoidance of pain and suffering
One big thing that i'm dealing with is depression. It's not easy to hold some of the ideas I do and not be. But i've always felt that while it's important to try to be positive about the gift of life that God has given us, we have to face the facts of reality and not use 'Hope as a great falsifier' as Balthasar Gracian would say.
We are not living historically in a 'post Dark Ages' environment, we are living in a true 'Dark Age', made 'more brutal and more protracted by the lights of a perverted Science' that Churchill feared if the Nazis won.
We fell into this because of our worldliness and materialism, which stems from our natural avoidance of pain and suffering. If we eat enough, play enough, fornicate enough....Maybe we won't have to face life and life's Author. We live as if life is just a parenthesis between Nothing and Nothing, given meaning only by ourselves. We are all becoming Atheists, living is if He did not Exist. Only we don't have the courage of a Neitzsche to say so.
The Answer is Jesus Christ, without whom life is absurd and false. With Him I possess a Joy that the World does not know and cannot take away. With Him, I have hope of final victory if I run the race to the end.
We are not living historically in a 'post Dark Ages' environment, we are living in a true 'Dark Age', made 'more brutal and more protracted by the lights of a perverted Science' that Churchill feared if the Nazis won.
We fell into this because of our worldliness and materialism, which stems from our natural avoidance of pain and suffering. If we eat enough, play enough, fornicate enough....Maybe we won't have to face life and life's Author. We live as if life is just a parenthesis between Nothing and Nothing, given meaning only by ourselves. We are all becoming Atheists, living is if He did not Exist. Only we don't have the courage of a Neitzsche to say so.
The Answer is Jesus Christ, without whom life is absurd and false. With Him I possess a Joy that the World does not know and cannot take away. With Him, I have hope of final victory if I run the race to the end.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
more about me
I'd like to give you all out there some idea of what I think and believe before I make regular postings to this blog.
I'm an orthodox Roman Catholic, I reject the antipapacy of 'Benedict xvi' and tentatively reject the standard list of 'Popes' from 'Benedict xv' in 1914 on to this day. That being said, I am not a 'sedevacantist', but I do not reject the idea as such-saying that it couldn't happen-I'm just saying that there are Popes but not the generally accepted line.
I'm a literal six-day creationist and I am a geocentrist as well, following a 'neo-tyconian' model of cosmology. I am Augustinian in my theology, and a follower of Joseph de Maistre politically and philosophically. Despite all that, I'm not a nut or extremist and unfotunately all too worldly to be a fire-breathing misanthrope. I have a dry sense of humor, which means I can laugh and still possess the 'tragic sense of life', so I hope you enjoy what I have to say and comments are welcome-even rude ones, to a point.
I'm an orthodox Roman Catholic, I reject the antipapacy of 'Benedict xvi' and tentatively reject the standard list of 'Popes' from 'Benedict xv' in 1914 on to this day. That being said, I am not a 'sedevacantist', but I do not reject the idea as such-saying that it couldn't happen-I'm just saying that there are Popes but not the generally accepted line.
I'm a literal six-day creationist and I am a geocentrist as well, following a 'neo-tyconian' model of cosmology. I am Augustinian in my theology, and a follower of Joseph de Maistre politically and philosophically. Despite all that, I'm not a nut or extremist and unfotunately all too worldly to be a fire-breathing misanthrope. I have a dry sense of humor, which means I can laugh and still possess the 'tragic sense of life', so I hope you enjoy what I have to say and comments are welcome-even rude ones, to a point.
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